if you apologise without knowing the reason why, whats the point?
sometimes if i flare up, what i actually wants is actually that word 'sorry'.
but if things had already gone haywire and nothing can be salvaged, 'sorry' became pointless again.
im not someone who usually apologise.
there isnt alot of people who received my apology before, because i think its of certain value, i dont say it unless it is to someone i really think is important to me.
but now.
i want to apologise.
i want to say sorry to everyone.
everything is my fault.
all the mistakes is all that i did.
i caused all the unwanted happenings.
everything is just me.
me
me
and
me.
im a big mistake, why did i exist?
gee, most of the bytches's birthday is over already, i feel like im a kid =S
anyway, had wanted to blabber about my bytchclan since some time ago, but always when it comes to the war between my laziness and me, ill be at the losing end.
so tada, without further ado,
introducing.......
my bytchClan! :DDDDDD
we actually had a similar photo taken a few years back @ clarke quay.
reminiscing, we mimic the same pose, stood where we stood then.
speaking of which, the arrangement was actually due to the height at that point of time, i see its not that accurate anymore. LOL.
cherish these photos because it is not easy for everyone to come together with the different paths we all took. (:
LOVE them all :DD
i would edit the photos if i were in a better mood, better state of health, and if my adobe package didnt play tricks on me.
Steamboat celebration for Kaiying's birthday ((:
scrumptious meal. (there were a magnificient number of bayis! HAHA.)
Waited quite some time for the soup to be hot enough and we grumbled and grumbled.
Finally, when the time is ripe, we literally threw every single item into it. HAHA. (i'm being exaggerating)
not alot of pictures taken during steamboat as no one brought cameras, and we were too famished! HA.
KAIYING's!
Then finally it was time to bring out the birthday cake, no suprise though. For the whole thing was situated in the birthday girl's house. =S
Birthday song! :D
Others pretending that its their bdae -.-
spent like 3 hours on this blog post, arranging pics and fonts and everything. -.-
irritated by this blog skin, limits the way i want to arrange everything.
): no specs, so sad. turns out that jiahao say its not nice.
sucks to be in a dilemma, thinking of things i wish it doesnt matter.
things that i cherish are things that are able to make me upset.
regardless whether it is just something tiny, or something spectacular.
i thought i should.
but they say i shouldn't.
i dont like bottling things up.
worse still, seeing others bottling things up.
dont like to see people i care being upset, yet i cant do anything.
so much so much dislikes.
but still.
maybe the one i dont like most is myself.
HA.
i want to say.
Mr Lim ah Tiong,
- Don't be too bothered about the same old stuffs over and over again, though its easier said than done. Like i told you before, you have the one and only me! :D Think through, if its really what you want, i'll lend you a hand (:
Miss Tan ah Lene,
- Im actually quite baffled by what you're going through now, but cheer up girl, ill always be there for you. Maybe you'll feel better if you share? Don't carry all the burdens by yourself. (:
Nowadays i wonder why, whether if it is contagious or what, that everyone seems to be gliding towards the emo side -.-
people like ahhui! stop emo-ing okay! you're supposed to be cheering me up when im emo, not the other way round!! HA!
to all others:
i dont like to see people around be grumpy or upset, so cheer up people! :DD ill sell you my smiles! HAHA.
12.09am -.-
usually i just use the side gadget, that explains the default font, colour and size.
lots of pics and all that waiting for me to upload, im just plain lazy.
some things happened
but its settled.
sunshine after the rain,
i hope.
moral of the story is:
never bottle up your feelings and
thoughts.
better share than keep it to yourself.
unspoken thoughts boils misunderstandings and assumptions, resulting in damages in things that you cherish.
fate plays with people.
some things really made me thing that everything is planned.
hmm.
but only now then i realised.
that im just someone of no importance.
But often that was when i got the least.
nb, i hate pills.
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