Monday, December 29, 2008
WOOO.
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
die die force you all to listen to his album, HAHA.
listen to all his songs hokay!! nice one nice oneeeeeeeeee (:
those that i uploaded is those that are my current favs. ❤
support him hokay!
buy his album, dont dl. LOL =x
❤ awwwwwwwww!!
see! even my toe is happy after listening to his songs! HAHA.
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
what we could have been, 4:32 PM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR CHAOTA REYYYYYYYYYYY! (:
a picture of you and your friends, LOL.
older le hor, have more integrity and stop stealing people's bangles hokay? LOL. (:
mr.chaota rey the good guy,
you're older again! LOL.
isnt that one of your greatest fear? HAHA.
wish you all the best kay,
may all your wishes come true.
find the one for you soon!
MAKE A WISH, NOW!
ill be helping you to pray for it to come true kay! (:
a picture of you and your friends, LOL.
older le hor, have more integrity and stop stealing people's bangles hokay? LOL. (:
mr.chaota rey the good guy,
you're older again! LOL.
isnt that one of your greatest fear? HAHA.
wish you all the best kay,
may all your wishes come true.
find the one for you soon!
MAKE A WISH, NOW!
ill be helping you to pray for it to come true kay! (:
what we could have been, 12:00 AM.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
merry christmas 'o8 to all! (:
esp Eleanor who had been waiting for this day since like dont know when. haha!
the year is ending soon,
and i have so much to say bout this year.
thanks for all that made my day;
greetings, cards, presents, cookies, everything.
update again later, when christmas is over. (:
anw, happy belated birthday to jin, vin, mehmeh, kengsiang, and others if i left you out.
p/s: i dont know what is wrong with my phone but i just cant reply messages anymore.
sorry for those whose greeting or messages that wasnt replied.
i took the sim card out like 10 times and it still doesnt work -.-
p/p/s: i love my bffs, besties, and all (:
what we could have been, 3:20 AM.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
should i be happy?
for all my besties to be so busy engaging in their own programmes of their own interest?
should i be unhappy?
that this whole year whenever there are big celebrations, events, or days that i wish they are there, but was taught that wishes dont come true?
no, i shouldnt be unhappy.
i cant afford to be unhappy.
at least now i dont wish anymore,
wishes never come true.
at least now i dont hope anymore,
for the amount of hopes you pinned, the same amount of disappointment you receive.
at least now i dont cry anymore,
yes, i do whine.
i still feel the same kind of upset,
the same kind of disappointment,
the same kind of abandoned feeling.
but its alright.
im trying to adapt, trying hard.
glad that im not immune though;
for i still am able to express my thoughts, my emotions.
at least now i dont blame anymore,
i realised it just doesnt matter,
what have i to blame? (:
at least i still have them by my side,
probably i expected too much from them,
all along i have high expectations on the people i care for, or are dear to me.
unknowningly imposing stress on them.
i have to learn to be independent,
or to be immune.
im glad that it seems like no one read my blog anymore.
because these thoughts are shameful,
made me feel so useless.
then, why post?
because im going crazy.
its too overwhelming.
for all my besties to be so busy engaging in their own programmes of their own interest?
should i be unhappy?
that this whole year whenever there are big celebrations, events, or days that i wish they are there, but was taught that wishes dont come true?
no, i shouldnt be unhappy.
i cant afford to be unhappy.
at least now i dont wish anymore,
wishes never come true.
at least now i dont hope anymore,
for the amount of hopes you pinned, the same amount of disappointment you receive.
at least now i dont cry anymore,
yes, i do whine.
i still feel the same kind of upset,
the same kind of disappointment,
the same kind of abandoned feeling.
but its alright.
im trying to adapt, trying hard.
glad that im not immune though;
for i still am able to express my thoughts, my emotions.
at least now i dont blame anymore,
i realised it just doesnt matter,
what have i to blame? (:
at least i still have them by my side,
probably i expected too much from them,
all along i have high expectations on the people i care for, or are dear to me.
unknowningly imposing stress on them.
i have to learn to be independent,
or to be immune.
im glad that it seems like no one read my blog anymore.
because these thoughts are shameful,
made me feel so useless.
then, why post?
because im going crazy.
its too overwhelming.
what we could have been, 10:27 PM.
Monday, December 15, 2008
yayness for today. ❤
officially first day of holidays and its not too bad. =D
this two weeks, i wanna:
❤ watch movies(TWILIGHT!!, the four christmases?),
❤ xmas pressies exchange,
❤ shop,
❤ chilling session!
❤ mahjong!
❤ read the whole of twilight series! (ive been babbling for so long yet no actions were taken -.-)
❤ meet my bffs, besties, buddies!!!!! ❤
❤ pool,
❤ kbox,
❤ steamboat,
❤ medicure,
❤ pedicure,
❤ sleep for 24hrs? HAHAHA.
❤class outing THANKS TO SOMEONE FOR DASHING MY HOPES. (:
MISSIONS OF TWO WEEKS! =DD~
khakis, auto abit kay. LOL.
officially first day of holidays and its not too bad. =D
this two weeks, i wanna:
❤ watch movies(TWILIGHT!!, the four christmases?),
❤ xmas pressies exchange,
❤ shop,
❤ chilling session!
❤ mahjong!
❤ read the whole of twilight series! (ive been babbling for so long yet no actions were taken -.-)
❤ meet my bffs, besties, buddies!!!!! ❤
❤ pool,
❤ kbox,
❤ steamboat,
❤ medicure,
❤ pedicure,
❤ sleep for 24hrs? HAHAHA.
❤
MISSIONS OF TWO WEEKS! =DD~
khakis, auto abit kay. LOL.
what we could have been, 11:53 PM.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
seriously pissed.
you looked down on me in the first place.
so why bother and make a big fuss?
whats the big deal about it when you never did pin any hopes on me?
whats the big deal about it when you deemed me as a failure way before everything?
you want efficient.
we gave you what you want.
but looks like you're the one who didnt do your job.
if you expect so much from us, why cant the same be observed from you?
busy?
heavy workload?
overwhelming responsibilities?
sorry, that is absolutely nonsensical.
what about us?
yes, studies is students' main responsibility and should be prioritize.
but that doesnt mean we have no life.
like you, we have our family.
like you, we have our friends.
like you, we have our responsibilities that you didnt know of.
burdens,
stress,
ridiculous happenings.
who doesnt have to go through all these?
you should have known,
you ought to have gone through all of these, no?
if you want respect, you ought to show me the respect that i needed.
arent we all humans?
no?
arent we supposed to be treated like young adults?
no?
if you think that we dont deserve to be treated like humans,
i dont see the need to explain or talk.
p/s: please bring your brain out next time.
(:
disclaimer:
i am NOT pinpointing at anyone.
purely sharing my thoughts.
dont assume; assumption kills.
((:
p/p/s: thanks for making my day.
you looked down on me in the first place.
so why bother and make a big fuss?
whats the big deal about it when you never did pin any hopes on me?
whats the big deal about it when you deemed me as a failure way before everything?
you want efficient.
we gave you what you want.
but looks like you're the one who didnt do your job.
if you expect so much from us, why cant the same be observed from you?
busy?
heavy workload?
overwhelming responsibilities?
sorry, that is absolutely nonsensical.
what about us?
yes, studies is students' main responsibility and should be prioritize.
but that doesnt mean we have no life.
like you, we have our family.
like you, we have our friends.
like you, we have our responsibilities that you didnt know of.
burdens,
stress,
ridiculous happenings.
who doesnt have to go through all these?
you should have known,
you ought to have gone through all of these, no?
if you want respect, you ought to show me the respect that i needed.
arent we all humans?
no?
arent we supposed to be treated like young adults?
no?
if you think that we dont deserve to be treated like humans,
i dont see the need to explain or talk.
p/s: please bring your brain out next time.
(:
disclaimer:
i am NOT pinpointing at anyone.
purely sharing my thoughts.
dont assume; assumption kills.
((:
p/p/s: thanks for making my day.
what we could have been, 6:46 PM.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
i dont like it when my trust is treated like vapour.
neither do i like it fumbled with.
if its so taken for granted,
is it a lesson learnt to be less gullible?
tell me who likes to feel optional.
neither do i like it fumbled with.
if its so taken for granted,
is it a lesson learnt to be less gullible?
tell me who likes to feel optional.
what we could have been, 10:55 PM.
Monday, December 8, 2008
i need to wake up.
stop thinking.
i need a drink.
stop thinking.
i need a drink.
what we could have been, 11:01 PM.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
why?
what?
how?
its like i thought it matters.
but it seems like it doesnt.
there's alot that i want to say or share,
but when the time comes i just cant utter a single word.
its that insecure feeling again, like always.
hate it.
i need answers for all my questions.
what?
how?
its like i thought it matters.
but it seems like it doesnt.
there's alot that i want to say or share,
but when the time comes i just cant utter a single word.
its that insecure feeling again, like always.
hate it.
i need answers for all my questions.
what we could have been, 10:38 PM.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
i need to sleep.
i need ample of sleep.
nowadays i keep getting feedbacks from classmates that
1) i look sleep deprived.
2) i have swollen eyes.
3) i look pale and restless.
ZOMGGGGGGGGGG.
=OOOOOOOOOOOO
im mentally and physically strained.
im stretched to go near my limits,
but i dont wanna get anywhere near there.
projects are driving me crazy,
not to mention about all the tests that tagged along like bonuses;
only that they are from the negative side.
jap oral; a blank mind.
i need a way to overcome my exam/test-mind-blank-disease.
cure, anyone?
9am lecture,
dreaded.
2 hrs bis,
worse.
i just have the tendency to oversleep every friday, how? ):
1 more week, please arrive fast before i stop breathing.
i need ample of sleep.
nowadays i keep getting feedbacks from classmates that
1) i look sleep deprived.
2) i have swollen eyes.
3) i look pale and restless.
ZOMGGGGGGGGGG.
=OOOOOOOOOOOO
im mentally and physically strained.
im stretched to go near my limits,
but i dont wanna get anywhere near there.
projects are driving me crazy,
not to mention about all the tests that tagged along like bonuses;
only that they are from the negative side.
jap oral; a blank mind.
i need a way to overcome my exam/test-mind-blank-disease.
cure, anyone?
9am lecture,
dreaded.
2 hrs bis,
worse.
i just have the tendency to oversleep every friday, how? ):
1 more week, please arrive fast before i stop breathing.
what we could have been, 10:31 PM.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
today is a memorable day.
no, not in the good way.
i got hit at the back of my head by some unknown flying object when i was playing kar2is's ds in the lect hall.
it was so sudden that i reacted after a few seconds LOL.
qx said that was the handle of the chair.
and i was expecting some apology thingy about some accident or what.
but none ley -.-
then when i finally regain my senses and turned to look at the floor, i saw the handle and a phone -.-
thinking that it was qx's, i picked it up then shoved to qx.
then someone said "err, ty" and took the phone -.-
so, question of the day:
was that UFO a random mobile phone,
or was it a handle from the chair?
WHICHEVER IT IS, IT IS SO F*CKING RIDICULOUS. -.-
who in the world (except me) will have the luck to get hit by things like that.
if anyone knows what happened, please tell me the details ty. LOL.
p/s: i heart bff (:
my mood hit the bottom of the valley.
cheer me up? ):
no, not in the good way.
i got hit at the back of my head by some unknown flying object when i was playing kar2is's ds in the lect hall.
it was so sudden that i reacted after a few seconds LOL.
qx said that was the handle of the chair.
and i was expecting some apology thingy about some accident or what.
but none ley -.-
then when i finally regain my senses and turned to look at the floor, i saw the handle and a phone -.-
thinking that it was qx's, i picked it up then shoved to qx.
then someone said "err, ty" and took the phone -.-
so, question of the day:
was that UFO a random mobile phone,
or was it a handle from the chair?
WHICHEVER IT IS, IT IS SO F*CKING RIDICULOUS. -.-
who in the world (except me) will have the luck to get hit by things like that.
if anyone knows what happened, please tell me the details ty. LOL.
p/s: i heart bff (:
my mood hit the bottom of the valley.
cheer me up? ):
what we could have been, 8:55 PM.
