Monday, October 13, 2008
some addition in your life means omission in some other things in your life.
the only reason i can come out with to blind myself from all the darts that shot through.
but again,
are you taking too much away from me?
no matter what happens tommorrow, i will smile.
so many of you tried your best to give me what i want just so that ill have a wonderful birthday this year.
ive no rights to not be fine, ive no rights to be beaten down so easily.
be strong, girl!
im so disappointed in myself that i lost control.
they just keep flowing, like some emotional burst.
afraid of this,
didnt even dare to dream.
knew broken expectations will hurt much more.
tt is why didnt even dare to expect anything.
i dont understand.
but now, i dont want to understand.
let it be,
i really gave up.
i admit defeat.
i got stabbed by what hurts me most. :D
stop lying to me, stop building my reliance on birthday wishes.
they dont work, and they never will.
the only reason i can come out with to blind myself from all the darts that shot through.
but again,
are you taking too much away from me?
no matter what happens tommorrow, i will smile.
so many of you tried your best to give me what i want just so that ill have a wonderful birthday this year.
ive no rights to not be fine, ive no rights to be beaten down so easily.
be strong, girl!
im so disappointed in myself that i lost control.
they just keep flowing, like some emotional burst.
afraid of this,
didnt even dare to dream.
knew broken expectations will hurt much more.
tt is why didnt even dare to expect anything.
i dont understand.
but now, i dont want to understand.
let it be,
i really gave up.
i admit defeat.
i got stabbed by what hurts me most. :D
stop lying to me, stop building my reliance on birthday wishes.
they dont work, and they never will.
what we could have been, 10:15 PM.
